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"TRUTH IS STRANGER THAN FICTION"
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MANIFESTO
I
attended a book signing recently. The author is someone that I have become very fond of, in the course of my interactions, in
our literary circle.
She
is a joy to be around! When I encounter this particular author, she is always upbeat. She is radiant. It's
obvious to me that she is a work in progress. By that I mean, she is an individual that has obviously worked and worked
on herself, to the point that she self actualizes, in a consistently positive way. I recognize who she is because I
too have worked and worked on myself and continue to strive for greater and greater self actualization. Most sentient
beings, for reasons too varied to attempt to characterize, are stuck at a certain stage in their development and remain there
until they self destruct or fade away. Vibrant spirits always stand out in the crowd.
Toward
the end of the evening, my friend, The Vibrant Author, read an excerpt from her book. She talked about her early
childhood and the misery that she suffered because of her repressed sexual identity. She escaped that misery the day
she acknowledged her sexuality and has never looked back! I was particularly moved by what she read because it helped
me understand the passion that motivated the creation of her work.
I
have a male friend that I have watched deteriorate, mentally and physically, over the past twenty years or so, because he
has refused to come out of the closet and embrace his sexuality. Acknowledging who you are to GOD and man is healthy, physically,
mentally and spiritually. It's an integral component of self actualization.
When
I got home, I began reading The Vibrant Author's book, instead of setting it on the shelf and letting it collect
dusk, as I'm prone to do, after attending a book signing.
I
had an epiphany, about my own sexuality, as I was reading The Vibrant Author's book. I've been a horny, wanna stick
Mister Wiggles in every woman with a pulse, since I was about 12. My epiphany was that as a heterosexual man, I
should have no shame in my game. I should embrace my rabid hyper-sexuality!
Over
the years, I have met far too many people that have wrestled with their sexuality. In the age of erectile dysfunction,
gender ambiguity, depression and performance anxiety, over sexual issues, I feel fortunate because I've been able,
since I was a very young boy, to try and stuff my little Asiatic dick in as many orifices as I can squeeze him in!
I have a gift that I am proud of (see Is There A Bad Time To Have An Erection? ) and intend to share it with as many women as I can, for as long
as I am physically able!
I found this video on FakeBook. I wanted to post
it there BUT I try and keep my FakeBook page as PG as I am able, mainly because EVERY child that I was around when I
was married to Dracula is now my FB friend. Even though they are now all grown, the daddy in me attempts to keep them
out of my freak mix!
The dude in the video is telling it like it is.
There are many woman and some men that might take issue with his delivery, but at the end of the day it's about the message.
Many men want to have sex with no drama. Personally, as I move forward, I loath any form of
drama and go to great lengths to avoid it. My desire to avoid drama has caused me to seek out women willing to
ingratiate themselves to me. In the known universe for every reaction there is an equal and opposite reaction.
Taking advantage of needy women has caused me to be rather nihilistic, selfish in the sexual arena, and reluctant to
participate in the mating rituals that men and women often participate in! I have essentially abandoned courtship but
not sex.
I told one of the other authors - the most physically attractive
multi-talented poetess I know - at the book signing that I "throw em on the floor then put them out"! The
Poetess looked at me like she wanted to slap the cowboy stew out of my dumb ass, but I was about to hand her 10
bucks for her poetry book, so she politely restrained herself. Frankly, I would enjoy a little abuse from The Poetess in
a controlled situation - leather bustiea, thong, hi heels, handcuffs, wooden ruler - but I aint gonna hold my breath!
I digress. The statement I made to The Poetess about throwin em down and puttin em out was very close to the truth.
I have been extremely fortunate, in the past few years,
because I have been been dealing with several women that want my attention and place very few demands on me in return for
the time I spend with them. These situations are admittedly double edged swords because I have regressed to a sexual
Troglodyte, because they literally allow me to throw them on the floor, molest em and put em out. I know in my
well developed Cro-Magnon brain, that behavior like that is not conducive to wholesome monogamous relationships BUT as long
as I encounter women that willingly allow me to throw em on the floor, molest em and show em the door, I will continue to
do so.
At the end of the day, in my mind at least, it's
about being honest. I tell women that I am not a potentially good boyfriend or someone desiring to be married.
A few years ago, I thought I wanted to be married
again but playing house with the woman I referred to as Tracie in "Where'd My Mojo Go?" killed that desire for me!
Men tell women all the time what they want and what we
are thinking. Unfortunately, women don't always listen. Women hear what they want to hear or reinvent what they
are told in their minds to something that is apparently more palatable. A woman once told me that she would spend days
mulling over our conversations in her head before what I had said to her was mentally digestible!
At the beginning of the relationship, I told
Dracula that I would be with her as long as she worked with me and not working against out interest. I promised her
that I would step the moment she violated the trust that I offered her in our relationship! Years later, her baby sister
told me that Dracula had said that I had told her that I said I would "always be there for her"!
Dracula was the first woman, in my adult life, that
I attempted to have an exclusive relationship with. My intent was good. I worked diligently at trying to
help her understand my commitment to her. I needed us to have trust, to strengthen the bond of our relationship.
It didn't work out. When Dracula got comfortable with me, she got real triflin in the way she treated me.
She basically took me for granted. When we married, after living together for 5 years, Dracula stopped trying
altogether! The experience I had in my marriage was emotionally devastating for moi! The experience left
a bad taste in my mouth for having the type of relationship that most women swear they want to have.
Taking the other person for granted can lead to the death
of the relationship. Men, moreso than women, tend to sabotage relationships when we feel we are being taken for granted.
It took me several years to make the decision to
remove myself from my bad marriage but once I was done, it was a wrap! I walked away
from my marriage a fragmented man. The optimistic part of me that wanted romance became stunted. My approach to
my personal life got real basic: I made money and got my swerve on!
A few years ago, I began to recognize that self indulgence
had me headed down the wrong path. I have become social again, yet I still hide my club under my coat.
I'm at the stage in my "development" that demands that I be honest with women about my disdain for relationships!
The smart women run, the brave women try and change my mind. The luscious ones that could probably make me forget my
issues surrounding emotional neglect, generally won't give me the time of day but that's another blog.
Like most
sentient beings, in my higher mind, I desire love and want to be loved. I just can't visualize it right now in
the mental space I inhabit. My friend The Vibrant Author has come to a peace because she is loved and is
in love. I, on the other hand, have gone to the dark side and am in need of salvation. servo
mihi!
